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01 March 2002 @ 01:20 am
river, fish, dream  
I've been weirded out recently by how patchy my memory is. Not just patchy in the sense of chunks of time, but patchy in the sense of space. It was crickets that did it; someone mentioned crickets on IRC, and I suddenly flashed back to the dock I went fishing at with my grandfather, down in Florida.

And I can remember the sunny, chalky road winding down to the river, and I can remember the dark wooden inside of the bait shop on the shore. And very clear and bright I can see the big wooden bin to the left of the door, where they kept the crickets. Thousands of them it seemed, wiggling around like manic spiders, creepy and cool at once. And I can remember the flat sheet of metal wielded onto the sill of a window to the left, just beyond the bin, where my grandfather scaled and gutted the fish we caught, and pushed the offal away into the water.

But I can't remember where we went fishing; just a blurry sense of staring down into the river water washing around the piers. And I'm not even sure that is Florida, or river water. Perhaps it's the lake my great-aunt took me to in North Carolina, where we first drank Mountain Dew, and the silt was soft and deep and sucked my feet in as I went wading.

I think the dock extended out beyond the shop; at least I remember my grandfather walking back with me, but beyond the little patch, it all fades into a white blur, like a simulation no one has bothered to finish. I walk out into the sunlit void, a cup of crickets in my hand.
(Anonymous) on March 1st, 2002 12:43 pm (UTC)
Is that the same place we saw the dead...
...water moccasin?

I don't remember the crickets, but then I don't like creepy-crawlies.

Lauratavella on March 1st, 2002 01:28 pm (UTC)
Re: Is that the same place we saw the dead...
I think so, at least I remember something about one being poked at. It was in the water near shore, and we dragged it in or something? Or maybe that bit I'm confusing with a live one that we saw, or at least Mark saw, I think I was looking the wrong way at the time.
Lauratavella on March 1st, 2002 01:30 pm (UTC)
Re: Is that the same place we saw the dead...
Oh, and if you want a free LJ account, I can give you a code. Means you get email copies of replies to your comments and stuff.
(Anonymous) on March 1st, 2002 04:54 pm (UTC)
It was the St John River where it runs through Ocala FL. And there were coral snakes on the road sometimes.
Lauratavella on March 2nd, 2002 01:40 pm (UTC)
Re: Rivers
Yes! That's the name, I couldn't remember. Do you remember anything about the dock?
(Anonymous) on March 2nd, 2002 04:23 pm (UTC)
Re: Rivers
Remember sort of - mostly I remember the coral snake I saw on the road. Scary.